a christian hedonist

this morning i dreamt i had a chickenpox.

and i saw a smashed cockroach on the road.

and this morning... she says:

i

can't

go

to

MN

this summer

period.

it is understandable with the elections and all the political shit.

but furthermore, it is because no one can go with me after 19th apr.
this reason though that makes it ever harder to accept.

even if there's 99% chance the plane would crash, hijacked, and me killed, i would have risk the damn life.
but since when this life was mine to control?

and don't you ask me why i need to go so much.
they're my family too and it's not that they're better or i love them more, they're just different from you.

they're the kind of people i can actually talk to.

i know it's unfair.

ps. rose - think i'll have to go to nkpt next week. the class probably starts on this 20th.