a christian hedonist

the other day i was in front of the computer, relaxing after a long week.
she was watching the tv. and a program about an online game addiction came on.

the interviewee, a teacher or something, said that the parents should talk more to the children.
then she said, 'don't know how else we could talk.'

...

we never talk.
as far as i could remember, we never did.

and don't even think i never tried. cause i did.
but when we talk it's all about what she wants to talk about. i don't mind that very much.
but when i talk, i do want to be heard. that hardly happens.

it isn't hard to notice that you're ignored.
so i stop talking.

then she blames me for not talking.
and i blame her for not asking me to talk.

...

i turned off the computer.
she continues to watch tv.

i did the dishes, had a shower, and went to bed..

in silence.

...

Some say hearts grow silent
In a world where no one cares
Love keep slipping away

Some say time is the healer
But in a house where no one speaks
Love keep slipping away

Tell me
Why do we fight when we know it's all wrong
Why do we play that same old song
Is it just because
We're lonely

Love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway

Some say tears run dry but
In my heart I've cried forever
Only you can take it away

Tell me
Why do we fight when we know it's all wrong
Why can't we see what's going on
Is it just because
We're lonely

Love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway

Anything to break the ice
Anything at all
Anything to break the ice
Anything at all

Love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway
Help me chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway.....

Say Something Anyway, Bellefire, bold added