a christian hedonist

and i keep asking myself:
what do i want from you, from this relationship?

...

i usuallydon't tell anybody about something that really matters.

cause i'm afraid no one will want to listen
and i'm afraid that others won't think it's important as much as i do.

so i always wait for someone to ask, cause that means they do want to hear, but that doesn't always happen.

but now i don't care.
i want to say it out loud and admit how i feel.

for one thing i've been thinking that i probably look too good in this blog.
i mean, it's all true, but it's not the whole truth.
and it's really me, but only a part of me.

there're things i want to say, and i wish i could say it.
but it'll take me some time to think it through
cause it's hard, really, to understand yourself and to be frank about it.

it'll be soon i hope.

oh, in case you wonder why i'm using english lately, there's really no particular reason.
i just feel like it.

...

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when

Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when

- Someday, Nickelback